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I’m here in Cebu feeling pity with my Baby, sometimes I get mad to myself because I can’t do nothing about her problem.I know moral support and tender loving care is not enough for her problem what she needs is financial support only if only I have a job.Looking for a job here in the Philippines is not that easy especially with the crab mentality of the people but I understand it well.I mean they give priority to those who have a degree rather than those person who have none,having a college degree is not even enough for them.

I just can’t understand why would they not give support to my Baby I mean everything they asked my Baby give.Would you believe at the age of 10 she is already given a choir not just a house choir but a choir which a grown up would do.She is asked to go to market to buy some supply for there store, to go to Carbon to fix a cellphone.By the way Carbon is not just a market were it’s safe,all thief,drug user and seller lived, but I’m not talking in general but commonly if you say Carbon they would normally say It’s not a safe place for a person to be wondering a round specially at night.Believe or not my Baby would be going there at the age of 10. 7pm to 10pm waiting for the cell to be fixed.With only enough money for her to ride a jeepney.A jeepney is one of our transportation here in the Philippines.She don’t even have extra money for her to buy some food. Sometimes she would just walk for her to be able to eat and she have been doing that until this very day.To have a better view of her family, they are actually 7 siblings with 6 women and 1 boy.Starting from the youngest namely Dianne, Joy, Marie who is my baby, Tiffany, Jr who is now in Florida, Mylenne a teacher in a university here in Cebu and Leah who is in Taiwan.From Dianne she ages 16 Joy is 18 Marie is 20 tiffany hmmm I don’t remember much of her elder brother and sisters. Among her sisters only my Baby is given the task of buying and she’s not just buying it in a mall, she’s buying it in a wet market not to mention dangerous place.But her parents never mind about it.As long as she could complete there given tasked. But when she asked money for her school projects they will not support her they even scold her.Actually they have never been supportive to my Baby.My Baby graduated in ACS Associate in Computer Science.But she never did like the course, she was just forced to.What she really like was Electronic Technician.Manly works She love to do man’s work she doesn’t like house work but she loves to clean the house but when it comes to working in electrical wiring’s or fixing there jeep she always do a nice job.In everything she was asked she always did it the right way and recently she was asked to study a caregiver and she’s about to finish it 2 more days.But even in the beginning of her caregiver career they never supported her not even in her allowance.Her eldest sister Leah is supporting her and some of me.But in my case it doesn’t need to be counted I mean I’m her boyfriend so I am part of her life and we always share everything.She’s going to finish her caregiver career with hatred in her heart especially to her father,I don’t know what happened but they were supposed to be closed with eachother. I began to ask myself is it me? is it because her once favorite daughter is having a relationship with me? I did everything to pleased them just to show them that I deserve to be there daughters boyfriend.I think I’m getting nowhere it’s because this feeling toward them is mix. I should have know blogging eases you pain. I just can’t express it to anybody at least here I can say what  I  want to say anytime I want. I don’t care if nobody reads my blog the importand part is I could somehow released the feeling I have and express it. Maybe by tommorrow I can somehow sort things out from the beginning until now.

Another day

My day starts in opening my games account.Shogun,Tribal wars,Ikariam,The wrestling game and eating my favorite junk food lumpia shanghai.I just love it even thought i know it’s a junk and as people say,the  important meal of the day is breakfast but i eat junk food at breakfast i don’t know why i just grab it in the ref and just put it in my mouth and that’s it.Then before i end my day I eat again one lumpia.

My day today was just another day.Nothing so special about it.I went to my gf house with her 2 sisters then just hang out there nothing to do but just hang out.Before I went to there house I bought some food puto cheese and some I seem to forgot the last food I bought and it took me 1 hour to get there quite far from my house and there after I arrived we eat together with ice tea juice.I love to hang out with them it’s because I treated her 2 younger sister as my own.Although I have some little admiration to them both.They don’t share some qualities but each of them has a quality that I look for in a girl.I have know them quite sometime now.They were at there elementary I have witness them grow until they have crushes and bf I have witness it all.We played cards, watched TV, eat and i guess that’s just about it.As i said nothing so special about it just another day.

My first ever blog

This is my first ever created blog.I have heard many rumors about having a blog and i said i might try it.Though i don’t have much to say yet but someday i will.Let me start by asking myself.What the fuck am i still doing with my life? i am already 27 going 28 but still i don’t know what i want to do in my life.Is it maybe my mom is in U.S i feel like having a monthly income with my mom? I fell embarrassed asking money from my mom.Especially wasted 10 years of transferring school and courses and never finished not a single one.I always have my own reason why but even i myself know that I’m only fooling myself.Until now i still don’t know what i want to do in my life.i guess it’s better to trace back my life from the moment i remember.but for now i would like to rest.I was just with my baby.