I though….

After going to kristine agency for UK. I was with her bestfriend Grace we were talking things and I even saw Shiela’s elder sister. And also Shiela saw her sister. Shiela was like being interview but the agency about what she would do and the requirements in going to UK.

As we go home to test the last examination, the pregnancy test…

and…

I’m shaking..

3 to 4 mins seems to be a day…

one line..

then…

then..

then…

one line ONLY yahoooooooooooooo………………….

Thank you so much. For giving me enough time to prepare I mean I’m not yet ready financially and mentally.

And I told Her I made a packed, no  sex and masturbation for 1 month starting today Nov.14 to DEC 14… it’s quite a long day.

What if

I don’t know what I feel. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to think and what to say.

Just this afternoon after my school at CCA I went to Main to meet with my Baby, we were laughing, we eat at lumpia house at the back of Gaisano Main. Then we talk about how her elder sister had change, especially after knowing that the payment for the Tesda exam is only 500 but supposedly it was 1500 but even the discount, she was still short and like after the exam yesterday although she had passed there Tesda exam for the caregiver. Shiela feel as though her parents were not happy for her success because of the stupid 1500. As we go home, we were at BDO at SM waiting for a jeep to go to Lacion. She mentioned about her parents had been watching her stomach as if there were thinking that she is pregnant. Even Shiela thinks she is. She mentioned, but I were why did I not have any symptoms like vomiting and many more. And now in my house we were still texting and she said she feel dizzy and vomiting.

The question in my mind now is….

What am I gonna do If She is.

Having a baby

I don’t have any plan of having a baby yet. I’m not yet ready. financially and mentally. becoming a father is not something you’ll learn in a day. Being a father comes a great responsibility,not just in financial which I don’t have. Mentally? not that ready. I have encountered many children from my uncle’s siblings to Shiela’s sisters.  But I did not have that exposure, but i have an idea. I guess this thing that in my mind is due to being immature.

It’s really hard, I am not ready. I needed more time more things to do. It’s not her fault it’s mine. I guess we just love having sex all the time. Eventhough I no longer have the strength but still as long my dick ereck then just push it in.

just a month ago, my baby did not have her monthly period, and it’s quite shocking for us I mean, it’s been a year that her period where normal. I said to her maybe it’s nothing. Were scared but we have accepted it. if it’s really there or not we have accepted the idea. But after her exam in tesda this coming Tuesday. I guess this is it.

I guess this is my new life.I guess I have to move on.

What a week

Last November 2 was the birthday of Hazel Joy, The sister of my baby. Although I don’t wanna be there after what happened just a few weeks. I did manage to go there  because HJ texted me and apologized in behalf of her sister for what had happened and she even reminded me of her birthday. So i kept my promise and did went. As I was there I was like fuck why did I bother coming, but it was not just Hj 18th birthday but it was also Samantha Trisha’s Baptismal. So I was quite shock after knowing I was Trisha’s godfather. I was not prepared I was just wearing short come on I thought I was just gonna drive them to the church. So after  that As HJ went out I smiled,hug and kiss her in the chick. I greeted happy birthday and i said I guess your quite a grown up now, she laugh and said “Dagang Guwang” Old Teen,

We went to a swimming pool in Lilo-an It was not that quite good because the pool wasn’t that deep it’s more likely to be for kids. But the best part being there was learning myself to submerge. Dammm I actually lie down as if I was lying in a bed,the feeling was unexplainable. I manage to learn to swim like pro. LOL.

The most exciting about this day was that all of her family knows that Lady had given birth. From ate Leah to Jr. They have now learn the truth. So i guess there’s no more reason to be hiding.

but the past few weeks was not good I mean, I was not having an internet connection for a bout a week come on what’s with globe.