Jan 7, 2009

Last Friday Shiela’s friends gathered for some a little bit of a reunion, Grace, Milo, Christy, Maraba and a lesbian of some sort. and Grace’s boyfriend Brand Maraba’s boyfriend Ronnel.

We went to Lilo-an in a beach not that beautiful, never did like the beach in Lilo-an, and Compostela quite dirty. Plus added to the bad weather because we were having a typhoon.

The reunion went well they were reminiscing there past. High school to college, I think they have not seen each other for about 3 years I think. It’s quite a while.

Jan 6, 2008 Shiela’s dad and her sister Hazel arrived from Manila. As always I sense a bit of jealousy with Shiela. I just don’t understand why. To me she’s just like a sister. I feel comfortable with Hazel, I don’t know about Hazel towards me. I really wanted to get close to her not to have her as a girlfriend but someone I can talk to. When Shiela and I in a fight. There’s no one I can talk to to explain things to blow things out. It’s really hard when your having a problem and there is no one you can talk to. Especially that I don’t trust anybody that fast. I always believed in my instict.

Jan 1,2009 part 2

I just had my day not doing what I was planning. To exercise, but instead I cleaned my room and it took me 5 hours to do it. Not because it’s big or something but the hard part was looking for the trash and the valuable. But at the end of the day as I cooked myself for my dinner it was satisfying. Then as I was looking at yahoo.com and I have read a certain article that states.

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION CAN BE BAD FOR YOU.

AWTS!!! I was just doing my resolution last 1 am ago and it did shock me but as I read about it.

LONDON (AFP) – - Making self-improvement New Year’s resolutions often leaves people feeling worse, the British mental health charity Mind has warned.

Mind urged people not to make resolutions focusing on physical imperfections — such as attempting to lose weight — because they create a negative self image and lead to feelings of low self-esteem, hopelessness and even mild depression.

And when such optimistic resolutions fail, that could spark feelings of inadequacy and failure, the charity warned.

“New Year’s resolutions can sometimes focus on our problems or insecurities such as being overweight, feeling unhappy in our jobs or feeling guilty about not devoting enough time to friends and family throughout the year,” said Mind chief executive Paul Farmer.

“We chastise ourselves for our perceived shortcomings and set unrealistic goals to change our behavior, so it’s not surprising that when we fail to keep resolutions, we end up feeling worse than when we started.

“In 2009, instead of making a New Year’s resolution, think positively about the year to come and what you can achieve.”

Mind suggested resolution-makers focus instead on being active, connecting with nature, learning something new and working for ones community.

I kind agree but I rather do it both. resolution and thinking positively quite a fact. But I guess it will also depend on my perseverence. I guess I have to start on  Monday

Jan 1,2009 1:29am

I did not celebrate New year for 2 good reason. 1 in our religion today is not New years day 2. Because I fell I have done nothing to celebrate with. It’s like another year. But this year I’ll make it to a point where I will make a difference. Every now and then I will monitor myself thru blog. I will make a difference, I have to change my life I should now give priority to myself, my health. Tomorrow God’s will I’m still a live I’ll see to it that I will exercise everyday. Although it’s 1:32am but I just wanted to start a new life today. But anything else. I thank God for keeping me safe for the past year. Thank you. I should also try to blog every now and then. Anything I need to release I go right here.